Thursday, July 18, 2019

Revision to my post entitled "The Footprints" posted August 30, 2015

This revision is made in regards to the late Mr. James Chron, of the Dallas police/sheriff dept.  

In my post, i decided to allow my lifelong dislike & even hatred of police & other authority figures to influence me.  Luckily for me, i have grown up a little bit since then.  I had decided to pick on Mr. Chron's education or lack there of to say he was not qualified to look at & compare some footprints left at the Routier crime scene on June 6, 1996.  
No, he's not a forensic podiatrist.  I have since learned, his method of evaluating the prints are used across America.  And accepted in courts across America.  Routier's lawyers did not object nor did they chose to hire a forensic podiatrist. It has never been brought up on any of her appeals.  Mr. Crohn's education has never been questioned on appeal.  Matter closed for me.  And i apologize to anyone i may have offended.  

Monday, January 1, 2018

Tis the season to be getting mail!!

This is the pile  of letters i am working on responding to, minus 3 i think that had special requests.
Mail from November thru December 2017, these are the letters i have answered

Friday, October 20, 2017

New group where Newsletters i send to inmates are posted discussion is permitted but no debates or disrespect to any member or inmates is permitted.  Browse newsletters, add your inmate to the list receiving newsletters, add your suggestions/ideas, even volunteer to write a section for the newletter 1x or monthly.  

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Documentary i assisted setting up with Filmmaker Sabrina Van Tassel
This is the trailer to the Documentary which will air tonight in France, oct 15th, on prime time TV.  I will post the English version when it's available.  Yes, Virginia, my name is in the credits.  

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

These are the faces of the women the USA has murdered in the name of Justice during modern times. The images of these women and the look on their faces haunt my thoughts. Each has her own unique story to tell of how she got to death row. Twisted stories of abuse, poverty, mental illness, drugs & alcohol, often convoluted beyond belief. Corrupt court systems, overburdened & under payed public defenders, often mislead juries, evidence that was withheld or even fabricated. Women cut off by society & isolated in barren cells. Failed by society as children & then locked away & forgotten as adults. God doesnt make JUNK, people are not throw away.  We as a society must do better.  We must learn forgiveness and not seek revenge.  We must look to the source of the problem and not just eliminate the symptom.  no more killings....we have had enough.....

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Exciting update on 2 of my FL DR ladies

I am so excited to announce both Emilia Carr and Tiffany Cole have been commuted to life and taken off DR at the largest women's prison in the USA, Lowell, Ocala, FL.  This is huge and they are 2 of 3 women commuted to life in the last year due to a FL ruling concerning judges overruling  jury's that give Life recommendations and giving Death sentences instead.  This whole ruling makes me very happy as the Judges should not be able to overrule what a jury recommends.  No woman has been put to death in FL since Aileen Wornos and i am hopeful none ever will.   I am praying both Tina and Margaret are commuted to life as well.  

Saturday, April 15, 2017


a devotional written and sent to me by Tiffany Cole on FL's death row


I remember reading about an art competition where the theme given was "peace".  The artist who most effectively depicted peace in his artwork would win the competition.   The artist gathered their paints, canvases and brushes and started working on creating their masterpieces.  When the time came to judge the artworks, the judges were impressed by the various scenes of tranquility illustrated by the artists.  There was a majestic piece capturing the brilliance of the sun setting over lush greenery, one that depicted a serene landscape of moonlit hills and another evocative piece that showed a lone man walking leisurely through rustic paddy fields.   Then, the judges came upon a particular piece that looked almost horrifying and perhaps even ugly to some. It was the very antithesis of every other piece that the judges had seen. It was a wild cacophony of violent colors and the aggression with which the artist had lashed his brush against the canvas was obvious.  It depicted a raging storm where the ocean waves were swollen to menacing heights and slamming against the craggy edges of a cliff with thunderous force.  Lighting zigzagged across the blackened sky and branches of the single tree that was perched atop the cliff were all swept to the side by  the force of the gale.  Now, how could this picture be the epitome of peace?  Yet, the judges unanimously awarded the first prize to the artist who painted the turbulent storm.  While the results initially appeared to be appalling, the judges decision immediately became clear once you gave the  winning canvas a closer look.  Hidden in a crevice in the cliff is a family of eagles sung in the nest.  The mother eagle faces the blustering winds, but her young chicks are oblivious to the storm and have dozed off under the shelter of her wings.  Now thats the kind of peace that Jesus gives your and me!  he gives us peace, security, covering and protection even in the midst of a storm.  The psalmist describes this beautifully:  "He who dwells in the secret place of the host high shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty....He shall cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you shall take refuge"  (Psalm 91"1-4)  There is no safer place then under the protective shelter of your savior's wings.  It does not matter what circumstances may be raging around as David did in Psalm 57:1  " Be gracious to me, o you; and in the shadow of your wings I will take refuge until destruction passes by"  The new king James version says "Be merciful to me, o god,  be merciful to me! For my soul trusts in you; and in the shadow of your wings i will made my refuge, until these calamities have passed by.  "what blessed assurance we can have today, knowing that even if destruction rages around us, we can take refuge in the Lord. 

Please Note:  Tiffany and I correspond and she asked me to publish this.  

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

It's a new day....

Yesterday was not very good.  I allowed myself to transgress into some of my "old" ways for awhile now.  I put the brakes on, Screech! Time to stop, self awareness must kick in high gear now!!!'s a new day.  Yesterday is gone!!  And while i can't go back and redo things i did wrong.....I can recognize, i was doing wrong and i can own it and move forward because....It's a new day!!!   

God knows every little thing that was wrong with me and why i backslid into some old habits.  And I've taken some steps to prevent those things from creeping back into my new day and cause me grief.  I have enough grief dealing with the aftermath of my sister's murder.  I do not need more.  But more important than the things i did to prevent future problems is the fact i went to God, was forgiven, and now he will ensure i succeed in all i do.  

I have God's forgiveness.  I do not need to worry about people that wish to hold things against me.  They are not important and have no dominion in my life.  They are mere distracters and i have now prayed they be removed from my life.  

Be careful to not be a "distracter" to someone's faith and life.  God will have a lot of wrath on those that do.   

Now, it's a new day!!!  Time to do some work for the Lord!!  Time to smile and move into compassion mode!!  Time to write some letters!!  God bless you all that read this.  God is great!! Dont miss the chance to have him in your life!!!  

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Reaching out, reaching out, reaching out!!!

Things are looking up...picked up two more states, we are over 50 peeps now!!  I want to thank my good friend and new assistant Tiffany for agreeing to team up and help me out.   We have known each other since "back n the day" and have similar backgrounds.

We have inmates' we are reaching out to and sending our monthly newsletter to in AZ, CA, TX, AL, FL, Oh, OR, & NC. 48 women and 2 men

  If you have a relative, friend, or pen pal you would like us to write to, send our free colorful Christian based Newsletter, and/or add to pen pal sites, please let me know.  The more we reach, the more Love we spread.   Peace n Light~Rae

Sunday, December 11, 2016


I want to thank all the warm wishes sent to me for Christmas and wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!  Please remember to be safe on the roads New Year's Eve!!  
I am currently working feverishly to get Christmas cards, letters, and the "Forgotten & Failed" Newsletter out to Ladies on the Row!!!  Take a moment and send an inmate a Christmas card!!  You will be so glad you did!!  God Bless Everyone!!  

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Concerning Melissa Lucio TX DR

Melissa's federal appeal with the district court issued a memorandum and order together with a final judgement, petition was denied and dismissed with prejudice. Further appeals are discretionary with the courts. In order to appeal further, they must obtain permission in the form of a Certificate of appealability (COA) from either the District court, Court of appeals. Since the District court has already denied COA, they must try via the Court of Appeals. This must be done within the next 30 days. In order for the court to grant the COA they must demonstrate the lower courts decision was debatable among jurist of reason. To the extent the court finds they have met that standard, Mel will have the opportunity to submit additional briefing arguing not just the debatability of the outcome, but what outcome should be and why. Now that she has entered the 5th Circuit, that process usually takes 9 to 12 months to reach a decision and then she will move to her LAST appeal with the US Supreme Court. Melissa states she's not worried because the Courts are NOT control God is....but i'm asking please pray!!

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Just a note

Welcome to all readers new and old.  If you are new and wondering what this blog is about....go to pages and you can read about what brought me here, the how and why, the nitty gritty, i dont hold back much as i tell my story.  Why?  Well, i felt called to do for 2 reasons.  1.  I needed to finally come to terms with the mess that had become my normal and 2. I wanted to let others know, "look at my mistakes and transgressions and still God loves me, he's been very generous to me, and he's kept me alive many times that i otherwise would not have been.   God loves us us all and he loves you too. "  His son Jesus Christ is just waiting for you to invite him in.  He turns no earnest request away.  In fact, he loves sinners very much, he choose them for his disciples and he dined with sinners every day, he came to save not to condemn.   
Being a Christian doesn't take away the fun in your life or joy, it gives joy and peace, true happiness.  The Lord can make still any unrest within you.....We are not perfect, no one is......But we love our Father and he loves us back so many ways.  And we do fall down, but he's there to help us back up.  Much love to all that dont have to because he's there for you too. 

Sunday, October 9, 2016

How do i feel today? Asks a friend.....

Someone asked me how i felt today.  It was not the usual polite question used as a common greeting.  It was someone close to me that  knewi had been crying.  Not recently, but recent enough my eyes were still  puffy and swollen.  
"How do i feel today"?  i repeated.  "Well, that's a loaded question".  I answered.  
I feel ill.  I feel like there's no tomorrow.  I feel like i cant do this thing anymore.  But then i feel like i have no choice, so i wipe my tears and set my grief back aside.  There's no chance i will "lose" my grief.  It's been my companion since February 9th, 1985. I made my peace with it, but it still hurts every single day.  And i'm certain it always will.   This week's execution of a man i have never heard of brought it all back.  
  I think back to my own sister's murder. That night, how did

i feel? Sick, in agony, horrified, afraid, terrified, like the 

world came to a screeching halt. And nothing, nothing has

ever been the same since. That was Feb 9th, 1985. You

don't "get over" it. It never goes away. Time marches on,

but that hurt and those wounds never go. There is NO

closure. There is no Healing. There's no BETTER. Do i

hate my only siblings murderer? No, i sure do not. I

might have at first for a time or maybe i was just really

angry at him. I am not sure. He's also dead. For u see, he

shot and killed my sister then turned the gun on himself.

All in front of their 4 year old daughter. It took me 30 years

to stop raging and hating for this act that took mere mins

that cold snowy February night, so long ago.

Peace came only with God's help and forgiveness. I

forgave my brother in law. I get no joy or closure knowing

he is also dead. Their child wishes one of her parents had

survived. One. She would have been grateful if she had

her dad to visit in prison. She would have gone every single

visitation day. How do i know? Well, she told me this, more

than once growing up and as an adult. The crime affected

her more than anyone else. It still affects her daily. It does

us all, but it was her parents and she was there and saw it.

Then i smile and tell my friend i am one lucky woman 

because I had the best big sister ever was for 18 years of my

life. Those precious memories are all i have left now and a

few photographs. And I hold on, knowing God will reunite

us in heaven one day. And while i so long for that day. I

beg God for longer on beautiful planet Earth so that I can be

with my wonderful and loving family. Most of all my child.

Although an adult she will always be my baby, my reason to

live, the reason i chose to live, instead of dying inside. Yes

I'm a very lucky and blessed woman. And now it's time to

write some letters to some inmates and try to cheer them up

and make sure they know God loves them and wants to turn

their lives around.

Smile, God is good. He surrounds us with beauty. Don't let

the bad things in life, the mundane daily grind, or the

ugly of people and their destruction and hate filled ways

make you forget how lucky you are and how much God

loves you. He doesnt cause the bad things that happen.

He wants only joy and peace and love for you. It's yours

for the taking too. 

And should you stumble like I do frequently, he's right there

to help you back up. Because he knows our imperfection

and our backsliding ways. And still he loves us. And still

he's there. And still he cares.

Now, I will ask you, "How do you feel today?"


Saturday, August 13, 2016

Welcome to my Russian readers!!

I was sort of surprised to see this week, this month even,  Russian viewers have read my blog the most.  Usually it's is Americans that top the stats.   So I wanted to give a warm welcome to my Russian readers and let them know i would love to know about any Russian lady criminals if they might take the time to send me names/info.  Thank you so much for viewing!!